Two months have handed since 17 folks had been killed on the February 14 capturing at Marjory Stoneman Douglas Excessive Faculty in Parkland, Florida. Greater than understandably, the ambiance is completely different. It has been completely different — there isn’t any method it could not be — as college students and lecturers alike have processed their grief and trauma, usually within the public eye. A heightened safety presence is not serving to issues, both, as college students say it is solely been triggering their nervousness.
“The other day, in all my classes there was someone from security walking in and making sure that everyone had their IDs and that everyone’s bag was checked and that they had a clear backpack,” Lorena Sanabria tells Teen Vogue. “I was talking with one of my friends and they were like, ‘I feel anxious, like they make me so anxious.’ They were completely right. I didn’t realize it but I was anxious too.”
“It wasn’t just one,” she explains concerning the safety officers interrupting courses at MSD. “They started coming in every few minutes and then at one point there were five [people] in the same room trying to take care of the same thing. To me, it gave me a flashback of when the SWAT team came through the room and tried to escort us out.”
Along with the district-mandated clear backpacks — which many college students have begun utilizing as a type of protest — metallic detecting wands are being thought of for the campus panorama, based on an official who spoke with The Sun Sentinel earlier this month. (The latter are nothing new to a variety of excessive colleges all through the nation, however, as the New York Times reported in November 2017, their efficacy has extensively been contested.)
“I appreciate the effort [of the security measure],” says Lorena, “but I just don’t think that the security measures are efficient. I don’t think that they’re successful.” Carlos Rodriguez, her classmate and #StoriesUntold cofounder, agreed, telling Teen Vogue in a prior interview, “It’s a school, my goodness, it’s not an airport. We’re not supposed to walk through metal detectors, we’re supposed to be able to just go and go home.”
As for the backpacks, Lorena stresses that college students “just take it as a joke. Someone brought fish inside the backpack; they filled it with water and put fish in it. People have been writing stuff all over their backpacks, and put so much in it that you can’t even see what’s inside. We’re all peacefully protesting against these backpacks because we don’t really believe that they’re going to do anything.” At publication time, neither Marjory Stoneman Douglas’s principal nor the Broward County college board returned Teen Vogue‘s request for remark.
She additionally factors out that whereas the backpacks are supposed to preserve folks from smuggling in something harmful, the standardization looks like a specific form of censure. “To be completely honest, some of us feel like they’re taking away our way to express ourselves,” she says. “Personally, my old backpack had pins and stickers on it, just like where I saw myself in the future. I wanted to put a little bit of myself on my backpack, but now we can’t even do that. With girls, specifically, they’re angry because everyone is going to see when it’s our time of the month.” Cameron Kasky went viral for filling his backpack with sanitary products in an act of solidarity, however whereas it is essential to finish the stigma round durations, it is also a private expertise for most individuals, and being compelled to indicate tampons and pads, Lorena says she feels is an invasion of privateness.
Disruptions in school rooms lengthen past safety interruptions, too; Lorena says that lesson plans have shifted radically. “Carlos has a teacher that literally does not teach anymore because she’s so affected by it,” she explains. “Some of my teachers, one word triggers them. I had a teacher the other day that had to step out because she couldn’t help her tears. Some of my teachers will teach, but not at the same pace as before, because they made it clear that they’re not going to stress us out.”
Lorena says that most of the Parkland survivors depend on one another to assist heal. “Being together as friends helps us cope because when we’re alone, we all sit in this bubble of our thoughts and we just dwell on it. Personally, it’s hard for me to pick myself up when I’m alone,” she says. She additionally explains that their activism — just like the #StoriesUntold hashtag, helps her really feel like she’s making a tangible distinction.
“We’re not letting these people die in vain; we’re doing something about it,” she stresses concerning the undertaking, which goals to focus on the tales from survivors that the media hasn’t but picked up on, in addition to tales from gun violence survivors all over the world. “We’re not just doing this for the Douglas shooting, we’re doing this for any type of gun violence. We’ve gotten messages from people saying, ‘This is helping so much. I’m so glad I can finally share my story.'”